For as long as I can remember I have always been a bad sleeper I can vividly remember going downstairs as a child at the age of maybe seven maybe eight and telling my parents “I can’t sleep” or “I’m not tired” for them to take me back upstairs to bed and tell me just to close my eyes and I’ll fall asleep……it didn’t happen! I lay there looking at four walls in the dark thinking about everything coming up with imaginary friends and scenarios that would amuse my mind until I finally passed out due to being exhausted but I didn’t stay asleep long I was always up wide awake when the birds where chirping as the sun came up.
Going into adulthood not much has changed I find it increasingly hard to fall asleep I’ve tried so many different medications and treatments but nothing helps. (Huge mum sigh) the thing is I’m exhausted having anxiety and depression really takes it out of you and you would think that would somehow make me more tired……it doesn’t!
I usually fall asleep in the early hours of the morning and back up at the crack of dawn to start the day as a frazzled emotional exhausted mother of two young girls and to be honest it’s bluddy hard going most of the time i just want to snuggle up on the sofa with a cup of tea and watch Disney movies shutting out the world and trying to regain my energy that seems to have just disappeared.
I don’t know what to do anymore and frankly I’m at my wits end I’m cranky and moody and tired every day and wouldn’t mind a magical fairy coming to sprinkle some glitter on me give me a good nights sleep and I’ll be bright eyed and bushy tailed in the morning….if only 😩
I’m just wondering what I’m doing wrong I don’t sleep during the day I try my hardest to stay active but can’t switch my brain off I would love it if anyone could point this frazzled mother in the direction of a good nights rest and a healthy lifestyle.
If you have any remedies that’s you think may help could you please send them my way in the comments.
A frazzled mother at 2:15am